Baby Mickelson #3 coming June 2018!!
I feel like there is so much I want to document in this post! So I am just going to divide this post in to a few sections!
October 2015 (2 years ago) we decided that we were ready to add another little one to our family. However, the months passed and I still wasn’t pregnant. We weren’t too stressed because we figured it would happen when it was supposed to. Olivia and Clara were keeping me so busy, so a lot of times I even forgot we weren’t pregnant yet. A year came and went and I started to get a little worried. Michael and I would talk about it and I would express my frustrations, but ultimately we knew it would happen when it should. Spring 2017 was the first time that I really felt the “pain” of not getting pregnant. I had a lot of friends that were announcing pregnancies and having babies and it actually really started to hurt. I started to wonder if we were ever going to be able to have another baby. I wondered if I was a good enough mom and even deserving enough to have another little one. I started getting anxiety about how far apart they would be when we actually got pregnant, since Clara was about to turn 4. I was freaking out about Clara going to Kindergarten and being home alone while both girls were at school. My whole life all I have ever wanted was to just be a mom. That was enough to me and to think that the phase of me having kids home with me all day was coming to an end was almost unbearable. Feeling this way drove me to go into my OBGYN and start the process of figuring out why we weren’t getting pregnant. The doctor went over my whole history and ran a bunch of tests on me. Everything came back completely normal. He said he didn’t see any reason why I wasn’t getting pregnant. So next step was to run some tests on Michael. Everything came back fairly normal, however they did find a little something that they wanted to look into more. They said it could be effecting our fertility, but it shouldn’t have effected us this much. Meaning it shouldn’t be taking us this long to get pregnant. They wanted to run a few more extensive tests on him. At this point in our lives, Michael and I had been struggling a lot with other things so we decided it was best for us to hold off on the testing and try to get on top of everything else in our lives. We had one of the hardest summers of either of our lives, but came out knowing exactly what we wanted. If there is one thing I have learned from being married for 8 years. It’s to not give up. Push through the trials you are given and fight with everything you are stay true to who you are. Our faith in a loving Heavenly Father and Savior Jesus Christ as well as everything about the gospel is what carried us through.
We were FINALLY having another baby and we are all thrilled!
We told the girls that night because Michael and I don’t keep secrets haha! They were both freaking out. We have a little video that I will have to share sometime. But Olivia and Clara have been praying for another baby every single morning and night for the past 1.5 years so you can only imagine their excitement to finally be getting one!
Shortly after finding out I was pregnant, I started getting really bad stomach aches and cramps. I called my doctor and she wanted me to immediately go up to the hospital and have an ultrasound. She said she was a little worried about an ectopic pregnancy. I was obviously feeling nervous because I couldn’t bear the thought of losing this baby after wanting him/her for so long. But I felt so peaceful about the whole thing and new that everything would be okay. Sure enough they confirmed that it wasn’t an ectopic pregnancy and that there was a gestational sac. They could see a little something in there but it was hard to tell since I was measuring at only 4 weeks pregnant. I was so relieved even though I already knew everything was alright!
On Halloween I had my first official doctor’s appointment. The doctor started the ultrasound and within a couple seconds, there he/she was! The cutest little blueberry I have ever seen. He turned up the volume so I could hear the heartbeat! In that very moment my entire body filled with so much love for this little one. This was actually happening. That was our baby in there and he/she was finally coming to us. It was such a sweet moment and I am just feeling so blessed right now that I get to be a mom again!
One of the things that scared me so bad about being pregnant again was getting sick. I was so so sick with Olivia and especially Clara. With Clara I threw up every single day the entire 9 months. I barely functioned so the thought of going through another 9 month stomach flu definitely has caused some stress!
However, (KNOCK ON WOOD) while I am pretty sick right now, I am not near as bad as I was with Clara. I have been throwing up a couple times each morning and then getting super close at nights, but I seem to catch a few breaks in the middle of the day if I am lucky! This time around as grossed out as I am with food, eating actually helps. So if I can eat, I don’t throw up. With my other ones that wasn’t the case. I try to constantly be snacking throughout the day and sipping constantly on ginger ale has really helped too. I carry barf bags in my diaper bag and car because you just never know, and I even threw up in the bathtub one time because I couldn’t stand the “toilet” smell. I know so gross!
I am not going to sugar coat pregnancy, because it is hard. I am still pretty sick and completely exhausted all the time, but I do know that every single pain, barf session, is 100% worth it. I would go through absolutely anything for this little one!
Michael has been absolutely incredible through all this. He has picked up the slack at home and been so sweet to me. He has literally cleaned the kitchen every single day (I can’t stand doing dishes right now), he is so hands on with the girls although he always has been. He literally wakes up with them every single morning and feeds them breakfast so I can sleep longer. He has been so cute! He will come home with different fancy ginger ales to see if one of them works better than the other ones. He surprised me with two slices of banana cream pie the other day because I mentioned one time that it sounded good to me. He has been so thoughtful and I just wanted to document (even though I have already told him) how much it means to me. I am so thankful for him.
Since we already have two perfect little girls it would obviously be so fun to have a boy! However, we will be just as excited to have another girl so I guess we will wait and see! We already have both boy and girl names picked out!
I also have to give a very special shoutout to my favorite photographer. Melanie is the sweetest person you will EVER meet. I have worked with her in the past and we immediately clicked. She is so genuine and kind and obviously beyond talented! She offered to take these pictures for us and did it so last minute. They turned out perfect! She also did some family photos for us a while ago that I will post soon. You will die! Be sure to check out her website and her facebook and instagram! She is someone you want in your life, promise!
If you read this whole post I am impressed! This blog is like a journal to me so I wanted to make sure I wrote our story and feelings down!
We are feeling so blessed and so excited about our new little addition! We can hardly wait to meet him/her!
***I shared a little bit on here regarding our personal religious beliefs so if you want to know more you can click here!